Friday, April 1, 2011

Well it's a .....

BOY!  It really didn't matter to us what the gender was, since we already have one of each.  Abigail, however, was a little disappointed.  She really wanted a baby sister, but she is still excited.  If we were more financially well off, we might would consider having a fourth child, but I don't think that is in the plans for us.  Austin doesn't really have any idea what is going on.  We are naming the new baby Jackson Lee.  Abigail wants to call him Jack Jack, like on the movie Incredibles.  We will all probably end up calling him that for a nickname.  I have been busy shopping around online looking for boy bedding and a stroller/car seat.  This makes it seem really real.  I still get really nervous every time we go for an ultrasound that they won't find a heartbeat.  Logically, I know everything is fine because I can feel him moving around inside me, but emotionally it's like returning to the scene of a tragedy every time I go into the ultrasound room.  For anyone reading this that doesn't know, I miscarried last June and found out during a routine ultrasound at 12 weeks that the heart was not beating and the baby had stopped growing.  We were crushed, obviously, but we leaned and trusted on God to get us through and now we are having a baby boy in August.  I don't think anyone is ever completely the same after going through something like that, but we are healing and grateful for everything God has given us.  We know he has our best interest in mind and we cannot possible understand why everything happens, but we still trust Him to take care of us.  I didn't mean for this to turn into a sermen.  I really just wanted to announce that we are having a boy and are truly thrilled and cannot wait for August.